It was a bright afternoon... I saw her for the first time.. she was wearing a white colour suit.. I looked at her and kept looking until I regained my senses and thought I might make her unconfortable.. but I was sure that this was something special. I was hesitant.. I was quiet.. was in my thoughts.. thinking how should i talk. Several thoughts ran into my mind... Is she the one I have been looking for.. Naah!! How can she be that person? we haven't even spoken a single word. She hasn't even looked at me. I wanted to ignore that feeling but I couldn't. I wanted to see in her eyes as long as possible.. and wanted to understand this different feeling.
That was the first time I saw her.!!!!
Time went through very quickly that day. I kept thinking about her all day long and also kept thinking that why am i thinking about her. We worked in same office but in different departments. I wished we could work together so that I get to know her. Nothing much happend that day. It was a regular day for her but not for me. Next day she was wearing formals and I thought that she looks good in suits. All these times I kept wondering that why am i paying attention to all these. Nonetheless.. Harder I tried to ignore her.. it was getting even more difficult for me and finally I broke the jinx by asking what type of work do you do?
The feeling was strange. I wanted to know her to the extent I know myself. I kept saying myself ignore her.. avoid her.. but some invisible force was pushing me towards her.
Days passed.. I could not gather any courage to tell her how i feel for her.. and that time I too was a believer that love does not exixt and if it exist it can never happen at first sight. The reason was very simple.. at first a person only notices looks, but love is something above these notions. Love is just Love.. which can not be explained in words.
Slowly, I started talking casually, as where she belongs from? Who all are their in her family? about her education, her career ambitions etc... I was very impressed by her thoughts and the way she smiles. I just love that smile. No matter how depressed i was with my personal or professional life.. her one smile, nd i used to forget everything else. She had some kind of magic/ charm in her smile.
Suddenly, I started liking my office. I used to wait at the cafeteria, to get a glimpse of her. I used to work late; if she had to stay back due to any reason. I think she also started noticing me now. She used to pass smile whenver we had eye contact and I was a crazy person who waits for whole day long just to see her smile.
Some more days passed away and nothing really happened.. but now I started looking for excuses to talk to her. This didnt helped really and I decided it was time to take a step further. One day in some conversations, i intentionally pulled up a topic of movies, so that in the interaction I will ask her out and it would not look like am really asking her out on a date. I gathered my courage but all I could manage was that I want to go a movie but all my friends are busy this weekend. My destiny played part here too, where I was expecting a answer like <I can accomany you; or; I also want to see this movie> , the reply I got was; Ohh am going home dis weekend and have some work too.. I was disappointed at my first move..
Will continue from where I left soon...
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